Ever since the fall, humans beings are spiritually schizo. That is exactly how I feel sometimes. One minute I can feel so in the presence of God, the next minute I am doubting if I am God's elect. What drives these fears away? It's Christ. It's believe in the Lord Jesus Christ who takes away the sin of the world! The Lamb of God who takes away the Sin of the world! And there is no salvation in anyone else, For there is no other name under heaven that has been given among men by which we must be saved. Sometimes in my prayers, I do not know how I ought to pray. The heart is deceitful and desparately sick, who can understand it? Lord Jesus, open my eyes. Cure my blindness, have mercy.